It’s been the best of times; it’s been the worst of times….
So I’ve been lying low the last few days because I took on this behemoth ghostwriting gig. I’ve been through the whole wheel of emotions as I tackle each page with all the persistence I can muster. You know how I’ve been talking about throwing caution to the wind, casting off the bowlines, etc.? I did. I took on my very first writing project…contract, w-9, and the whole nine. And let me tell you… right now, it’s scary.
I’ve had moments where I’ve felt ecstatic. But mostly, I’ve felt fearful. With each passing day I wonder if I can do it. My deadline is fast approaching and I’ve still got a long way to go. I wake up in the mornings with the task before me, laughing and pointing its finger. But you know what? I hate bullies.
I am going to show this project who’s boss and give it the beat down. This whole experience is really an analogy. After all, I love writing. But now, I’m writing for someone else. Someone who’s pretty well-established. Someone who’s pretty successful. Will I make the cut?
We all have our own giants to slay in the form of fear, doubt, and disbelief. This project is testing my sense of confidence, faith, and belief in myself; am I really good enough? I’m staring those demons right in the face. In the end, I’m doing it not to prove anything to the person for whom I’m writing. I’m doing this to prove to myself that I AM good enough.
Just how capable are we, as humans, if we don’t have fear?
I’m walking the talk. I’m slaying the dragon. Because, once this is out of the way…the whole universe is the limit!
“I’ve learned that courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.” ~ Nelson Mandela
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