I Still Remember You

By Kim Saeed | Initiating No Contact

Oct 11
Your beautiful soul

By Kim Saeed

You disappeared so long ago

a slow, painful deliverance.

Your voice was silenced and you became invisible

as you vanished into your captor.

He bled your soul into his veins;

Because he can never be autonomous

He can never be you.

So he stole your spirit and made it his own.

A thousand years became a minute

You dwelled in purgatory, until…

You heard a voice

The voice you silenced

It said, I am still here…

So while no one was looking, you escaped through his laughter

Raw and vulnerable, afraid to be seen.

You hid under a dark cloud

His presence ever-ominous.

Afraid that no one would see you;

that no one would receive you

For you believe you’re not worthy

But, you are worthy.

I still remember you

I see you…not the cloud

I see your beautiful soul

I see the memories of you…the life and laughter you laid to rest

Your kindness, your potential, the contributions you made.

They were there all along

They never went away.

You were blinded…coded to erase yourself

You died to make him alive.

And he can’t survive without your soul

Take it back

Share with us your light…the gift that is you

Because I still remember you…

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(43) comments

My Inner Chick November 27, 2015

***But, you are worthy.
I still remember you***

gorgeous & powerful. xxx

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leesa November 27, 2015

That brought tears to my eyes – my soul,my love,my ex.

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akerulife October 15, 2014

oh.my.gosh. I’m not alone. <3

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    Kim Saeed October 15, 2014

    No you’re not…<3

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made58 April 28, 2014

Reblogged this on MadeleineMaya.

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xmarrsx March 26, 2014

amazing words! the silky pace kept me hanging on to each word. excellent piece!

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    Kim Saeed March 26, 2014

    Thank you 🙂

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armyofangels2013 March 26, 2014

This is great Kim! I reblogged it!

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    Kim Saeed March 26, 2014

    Thanks! 😀

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armyofangels2013 March 26, 2014

Reblogged this on Army of Angels and commented:
Recovering after ambient abuse is a journey that has taken me through the fire. Finding my voice was the most precious part of recovery, mostly because it had disappeared without me noticing!

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Kim Saeed March 26, 2014

Reblogged this on Let Me Reach with Kim Saeed and commented:

For all of you who are struggling to leave your abuser, and for those who are having a hard time with No Contact. I wrote this with you in mind…

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cho wan yau January 9, 2014

Reblogged this on Gorgeous and commented:
spooky this is me

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cho wan yau January 9, 2014

Wow that could have been written for me

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[…] This proves how evil, malignant, and malicious Narcissists are.  Their ultimate pleasure in life is having power and control – and ultimately, total consummation – over a person who represents everything he can never be.  While I’ve used a lot of symbolism in this post, it’s very close to the truth.  I wrote a prose about this manifestation titled I Still Remember You. […]

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Mia Amoure October 21, 2013

It is very descriptive of what it is like to be stuck to the flypaper of a controlling relationship. Once you get one arm free, using your foot to pry yourself off, your foot is now stuck. It took me years to get out. I thought I was free but I don’t know if I will ever be now.

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    Kim Saeed October 21, 2013

    I know the feeling…I’m not sure if I’ve shared this with you, but I have been divorced a year and a half, been remarried, and I’m still not free, mainly because my Ex and I have a son together. He uses this as an excuse to stick his foot in at every opportunity under the guise of asking about our son. It’s a nightmare…Bill Murray’s Groundhog Day from Hell…

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      Mia Amoure October 21, 2013

      Ya, a little Groundhog day mixed in with a little of that movie with Michael Douglas and the crazy stalker girl, only it would be the other way around. The stalker would be the guy, getting in the middle of the happiness of the wife and her new husband. Can’t remember the name of the movie but that is what I kinda relate my ex to, he would go to any lengths to either keep me or make sure I found no happiness with anyone else. It’s kinda funny but not really.

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        Kim Saeed October 21, 2013

        Fatal Attraction…my Ex is like the Glenn Close character, too, minus the homicidal tendency…loves himself too much… 😀

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Um, literally. I lost my ‘l.’

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    Kim Saeed October 16, 2013

    I don’t know if you got this when I sent it the first time because I didn’t see it under your comments. It might help for you to read this site:

    http://www.new-holistic-medicine.com/Narcissistic-Abuse.html

    It’s written from a male perspective. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

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      Thank you so much! I have been experiencing a bit of a time crisis today (we always seem to be in crisis mode around here), but I wanted to let you know I’ve seen your comments and appreciate them very much. I’m excited to read the link after I pick the kids up from school.

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      I read the article, and it does help. 🙂

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So well said! I recently experienced that moment, when the voice says, “I’m still here.” Actually, it iterally said, “I’ve come back for you.” I was walking around the neighborhood when it came out, so I felt a little embarrassed!

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New Beginnings October 13, 2013

A lovely poem, so poignant to my life right now. Exquisite painting also

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Alma October 12, 2013

Kim, wow. What a beautiful poem. It is definitely one of those live poems that touches your soul. Wonderful job.

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    Kim Saeed October 12, 2013

    Thank you, my friend…

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bombladoze October 11, 2013

Reblogged this on It won't always be bad… and commented:
thank you for this. it says a lot for me. 😀

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    Kim Saeed October 11, 2013

    I’m glad you like it…thanks for the re-blog <3

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Winky October 11, 2013

: )

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idiotwriter October 11, 2013

What a beautiful image to go with these beautiful words.

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    Kim Saeed October 11, 2013

    Thank you 🙂

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    navigator1965 October 12, 2013

    beautifulwriter stole my thoughts. Fantastic image, fantastic words.

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      idiotwriter October 12, 2013

      It is so on point hey Navigator! I held my breath..

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        navigator1965 October 12, 2013

        Yes, I can see that “breathtaking” would not be an exaggeration.

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      Kim Saeed October 12, 2013

      Thanks…that really means a lot.

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Renard Moreau October 11, 2013

[ Smiles ] This is a pleasant surprise, Kim. I had no idea that you were a poetess.

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    Kim Saeed October 11, 2013

    I used to write poems, once upon a time…nothing like spiritual transformation to uncover buried dreams 🙂

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