How long have you stayed with the Narcissist, waiting for them to change? To go back to the person they were when you first met them? Five years? Ten years? More?
Can I be straight up with you? No matter how they try to convince you otherwise, they won’t change. No matter how sincere it feels to you when they hoover. Deep inside, you know this to be true. Yet you’ve decided to give them another chance…a chance to prove that they are truly sorry for what they’ve done.
If your spouse/partner/fiancé truly had plans to change their abusive ways, you would have already witnessed sincere effort on their part. Yet, you hang onto the dream, doing all the same things you’ve done before, but hoping for a different outcome.
This article isn’t a lecture on the definition of insanity (though you probably do feel insane at this point). It’s to illustrate that the true love you want doesn’t exist with your abusive partner. It’s to highlight the necessity of severing the relationship and healing so you can make space in your life for the person who will one day love, respect, and admire you.
Of all the elements of a lasting, healthy relationship, commitment is one of the most crucial (aside from open communication). Commitment means that both partners are willing to weather the relationship’s ups and downs. It entails being realistic (not idealistic) about what real love consists of, which includes basic criteria such as:
True love and commitment do not require you to tolerate abusive demands and behaviors such as:
All of the latter actions are indicative of your relationship being based on psychological manipulation, and you should begin making plans to leave if you want any chance of moving on and finding true love. While no relationship is without its challenges, true and mutual love offers you feelings of trust and security even when the road is rocky.
1 – Going No Contact (or implementing Low Contact in cases of shared custody) is the only first step in creating space for your true love.
The reason is simple – the Narcissist will not make any lasting changes. He or she will pretend to change long enough to hook you back into the craziness, only to go right back to their true self when they feel comfortable that you’ve changed your mind and/or lost your will to leave (often within mere minutes of tricking you into forgiving them). The reason for this is they intuitively understand how much courage and strength it took you to get to the point of almost leaving. The fact that they hooked you back in once again proves they still hold intense power over you, and further that it would take double the strength and courage next time. Over time, many victims of Narcissistic abuse simply give up. This is what the Narcissist counts on.
2 – Don’t fall for the hoovering.
I’ve heard of extremely far-fetched campaigns by the Narcissist to win back their primary source of supply. They will claim to have started counseling, gone on medication(s), read books that you suggested, left the person they cheated on you with, had a divine epiphany, talked to their priest or a clergy member, gotten Baptized or saved, claim to be in the hospital, considered suicide because they’re in “so much pain”, almost gotten fired “from the stress”…and the list goes on.
These so-called life-changers are simply to play on your sense of integrity and make you feel guilty so that you will forgive them and take them back. On your end, you’re feeling there’s finally hope for your future together. On their end, they’re convinced there’s nothing they can do to lose your love, and are already plotting ways to make you pay for even considering leaving them, in addition to strategizing how they can continue seeing their side-supply. There is no “true love” in this scenario for you.
3 – Don’t start dating until you’ve worked on the wounds that kept you tied to the Narcissist.
This means don’t go out to bars, subscribe to online dating, or look up old flames. Will it be lonely? Very. However, until you get to a place of healing and forgiving yourself, you will only attract another toxic relationship. That doesn’t mean you must reach a state of sagehood in order to be ready for a meaningful relationship. In fact, assuming you’ve done most of your healing work ahead of time, a soulmate will help you in your journey of healing…not re-open your wounds and throw salt in them as would another Narcissist.
4 – Cut the energy ties with past lovers, including the Narcissist.
You need to unhook from past lovers to make space in your life for your true love. Otherwise, you won’t be able to invest yourself fully in a new relationship.
5 – Set your intention.
Visualize what you and your true love will do together. Include images of the two of you laughing, dancing, playing, and even making dinner together. Make space in your closet for your future partner to hang their clothes. Empty out a few of your drawers and make a place in the medicine cabinet for their stuff. Then wait. Not compulsively…trust in the process. A gardener doesn’t pull and tug on the sproutling in his or her garden. They plant the seed, nourish it, and let it grow on its own.
6 – Nourish yourself, too. During your journey of waiting, don’t forget to make time to enjoy life. Try things you’ve always wanted to try. Start a new hobby. Allow the new space in your home and life to inspire you. If you find your thoughts going back to the process of waiting, simply remind yourself that your true love will appear at just the right time. Dwelling on the time that passes only puts you in a state of resistance and will likely prevent your new love from showing up.
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